Akeelah: [quoting Marianne Williamson] Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

You should watch Akeelah and The Bee btw. We are all shit scared. I am shit scared that I will become a cynical, nothing-means-nothing, proud-of-being-a-pseudo intellectual-with-a-large-follwoing someday if I continue to analyse every situation so objectively (my own biased opinion, ofcourse!) and die a virgin.

I said I have become very quotable few posts ago. I get these ideas all the time that keep me awake in night. I am scared that may be my mind is at it's functional peak right now and I should use it while I can. I have said it before that I have a very short short-time-memory. The only problem is the surrounding. I am so susceptible to my surroundings.

And I have confidence in patches. There are things that I am terrible at. There are things that I am terribly good at. And then there are things that I think I am terribly good at. I have seen my hands shake talking to strangers on phone.

Anyway, where am I going with all this?
I remember about making some decisions on not watching any big budget movie on theater. especially after going through 3 Idiots writing credit controversy. We are such idiots.
I also had some life changing realization about the nature of power. With great power comes great responsibility. Everybody has heard it. But power is not static or absolute. those, who don't deserve it, will eventually be eliminated from the system. And the way you prove that you are deserving of it is by being responsible. I loved this Japanese Anime series called Bleach and in one of the episodes the protagonist is taught that 'Fear is what keeps one from winning a battle'. Its bothways. You are either scared of getting killed. Or getting yourself to kill. one of the best dialogues was when the protagonist is told that Those with power will eventually be drawn to battles. And that point in time, you can not afford the choice of not fighting. 'Jo tathasth hain, waqt likhega unka bhi itihaas'. I had read that as Skype status.

But for the time being, I am laid back. I lack faith. I dont think I can make much difference. But I know I will have my moments. And I will be up to it.