I had this realization. That if I toned down my sense of humor a bit, I could be irresistible to gals.
I also had some more realizations. I am talking too much these days. Worse, I am text messaging much these days. I think its a consequence to my innate weakness of pleasing everyone.
And have I talked about my inability to sleep for months now. I think its the general view across my friends that the days are gone that you could sleep and start a day afresh. For me, its the hyperactivity of my mind I guess. Its like a TV that I can not switch off.
I am also trying to fight off my desire to be at the center of affairs. It makes me feel pathetic.
I now know for sure that my ignorance has been my strength all this while. There were times where I did things because I knew that not doing them were not an option. But now the awareness of alternatives have diluted that drive.
Living life in extreme is quite easy. Caring completely and not caring at all is easy. Its fine-tuning life that is difficult.
Posted in: on Sunday, December 19, 2010 at at 11:36 PM