Well!

As I have discovered that I write only for the sake of writing. So here I am again. The one thing that I would perhaps never find out is that Why do I always say the same thing again and again. Well, I do make the same mistakes again and again. So few days ago 'BASF Global - The Chemical Complany' was here. And we all were given a chance to upgrade our jobs. So inspite of having a job that I am pretty much into, I decided to sit through the placement process. The procedure involved PPT (Pre Placement Talk), High Tea (Pizza and coke, why the hell did they keep calling it hightea????!) GD and PI. AAh I am again feeling bored now. Ok, I will still write on it. People you owe me big time.

So The company I got my job into had pretty much the same procedure. Well, they did not have high tea though. Okk. You might be tempted to judge the company on basis of whether they give away pizzas or not, but..??But nothing. It indeed is an important criterion. Anyway, I had cracked the GD previous time and was brimming with confidence for this one. The topic was ' Is there a right way of doing a wrong thing?'. And I gave the group the best start any GD can only dream of. I guided people. I literally brought the best out of people participating. At the end of the GD the panel and my 'colleagues' gave me a standing ovation, and I was offered the job without even going through the PI.

Do you want my autograph?? Send in your requests with a demand draft of Rs 1000 only right now.

Jyada ho gaya kya? Okk, If you havent figured it out yet I was lying till now. The truth is I barely spoke. Just as the GD was about to start I realised that I have a job that I am almost in love with. I am not a guy who will hamper anyone else's chance only for the heck of it. So I chose to remain silent. Not a single word from me. All people were stunned. I mean everybody knew that I would get through the GD. Well but I chose to fulfill a larger good. Well I am little wrong when I say the previous statement. I didnt do anyone any favour by not speaking at GD. I have a job, and I am going to join them, it is as simple as that. Yaa, I know I am great, plus I am humble. Rare combination.

Chal, bahut ho gayaa yaar. Ab toh sach batana hee padega. It's true that I did not utter a single word in the GD. But it wasnt because I suddenly realised the goal of my life. I didnt speak because I cudnt speak. It is as simple as that. 'Why?' is an open question. May be I didnt try hard enough. May be I was intimidated by the presence of studs in my group. May be I really am a loser. (Well. I might call myself an idiot, a loser, an asshole; but somewhere at the core of my heart I think that I am the studdest thing that ever happened to Earth.). Okk! So what exactly am I trying to prove by being this self critical? That I am being utmost truthful here? Am I?! Or Am I just trying to draw this image in front of the sole reader of this blog. Yaa, I am talking about you.

So the whole funda for sitting for another job was to have some more experience in GD and PI. After selecting few people in PIs, they were going to send them to Singapore for final round of interviews. So great-me worked out the plan that I wud clear PI, go to Singapore, have some gud time there, get an offer from there, and deny the offer saying that I would feel homesick. Well, they did get lucky this time. Bastards.

So after GD, I was sure as hell, that I wudnt get selected, but few of my friends who were over-optimistic about their performance were waiting for results, so I waited with them. So this friend of mine who had come up very aggresively on the topic ( which was the reason he did not get selected! huh!:) asks me(pretending to be an interviewer), ' Tell me two of your weaknesses?'. I said, ' Sir, doh dino se pair bahut dard kar raha hai.Sir(read it as sar or seer) bhi dard karta hai kabhi kabhi.'. And we all started laughing. Taliyan.

Anyway, This whole process did make me realise that I sudnt go and appear for job only for preparation sake. I had thought that I would write on a different topic too, but its getting late. And I sud go to sleep.

2 comments:

  1. Hmm.. Sole reader of this blog, eh? hehehe!

    Anyway.. I can see what you mean.. speaking in front of everyone could get a bit intimidating.. I myself have gone through the same thing! :-)

    And its good that you like your job, or at least you're pretending that you are, because if you are pretending also, then the chances are more that you will eventually start liking it. And that is what is more important - you like what you do.

    Good luck! :D

     
  2. basanti

    thanks! :D