I don’t know whether I should write down tiny winy details of it..especially if I am not sure if I want to remember them. Or maybe I do. The idea is to ignore it till it fades away. But there will always be this feeling of loss. (I know. I miss the days when I used to write for the sake of it. )
I was going through some of the older posts. She is there everywhere. (denial is a proof.. but acknowledgement is worse!)
It must have been the day I realized she was not one of the kids. Shit. It was May, I guess. For a good part of 2010.
Then those eyes.. who kya cheez thi, mila ke nazar pila dee.
And the smile.. powerful enough to force me to write this. Reminds me of the earlier times. Good times.
She so rocks my world.
Additional points –
1) About a week now since I have quit smoking. Let there be bigger occasions.
2) I have wanted to write so much about sanjeev, tapan and anna. They are my brothers. Especially numerous trips that we have made in past one year. Munnar, Hogekennal, Pondicherry. Many late night drives with sanjeev. Daaru parties. Discussions. Fundes. Poker. Cricket.
3) And you.
Posted in: on Monday, January 24, 2011 at at 11:00 PM